An update to this writing; what I learned on 3/19/26, one day after I wrote this, and, not a second too soon: While I didn't see, because I wasn't in the room, someone who actually witnessed the moment of my friends death, and told me about her last gasp for breath, just confided something else they witnessed. They said my dear dying friend seemed to express that she was experiencing one of the great joys of her life along with her last gasp for breath; that she was hearing and approaching someone she loved... I thank יהוה for seeing that I learned that! It means a great deal to think He helped her die while experiencing in her mind, a wonderful moment in her life. That joy she experienced will soon be part of the future for my friend and me; after her resurrection! I'm still  mad  upset that she had to die, but... my hope in יהוה is restored! "Help me my Father, to have joy before your face, forever..." John 15:7-11; John 17:13 Compared to David, my faith might not hold up well under judgment. But, thank God He is dealing with each one of us individually. The trial that the ordeal of my dear friends death has proved to be for me, actually upending my faith, should help me be more understanding of other people trying to come to know יהוה; and not be judgmental because they are not trying to walk in my same steps. That especially includes someone very dear to me. This leaves me with hoping I'll soon be with both the love of my life and my now dead friend in paradise! This now becomes another webpage I'll have to reread often, lest I forget the faith my trial has engendered and/or reaffirmed...